We have been to

Italy -Rome, Venice, Milan, Como Lake, Bellagio, Florence, Bologna. United Kingdom -The whole Kingdom including scottish land. Belgium France -Paris, Lille, Calais, Metz, Nancy. The Netherland -Amsterdam, Utretcht, Roermond, Mastricht, Rotterdam, Zaans schans, Velondam, keukenhof etc. Chez Republic -Prague. Slovakia -Bratislava. Hungary -Budapest. Austria -Vienna, Salzburg. Switzerland -Basel, Zurich, Interlaken Lake, jungfraujich, geneva, brig, lausanne, Lugano Germany -West and East Germany except Munich. Luxembourg United States of America -San Francisco, Hawaii. Poland -Warsaw and Lodz Spain -Madrid, Cordoba, Seville, Granada, Barcelona Turkey -Istanbul Singapore Russia -st.petersburg and counting...


Monday, 28 February 2011


After having been waiting for the one and a half month, at last the hard disc for my netbook has arrived. The hubby spent for the whole evening today, to fix it up and finally, I can online with my beloved netbook again and set aside Haris's laptop. I know Haris is eying the laptop because he is so into the nursery rhymes songs and since I confiscating his computer, he does not have a chance to enjoy the songs.

Till then,

Will be updating my blog frequently after this ..

Friday, 25 February 2011

the thousand dreams of mine

The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned,
I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand,
I lived by night, and shunned the naked light of day,
And only now, I see, how the years ran away

Yesterday, when I was young,
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me,
And so much pain, my dazzled eyes refused to see

I lost the plot!

The birdies songs seem to disappear in the cold thin air. The gloomy and not so bright sun shine makes me lost my plot. I have been mourning in this winter blues for quite awhile. I am tired of feeling stress and depress of 'I do not know the actual reason of being so down and tension'. If I have a stress meter, I shall say the reading would be in the highest peak. Oh dear God, please help me!

I loath this situation. Sometimes I feel the world is against me and the friends are foes. What a crazy thought is that?

I keep wanting to write but I just do not know what to write about. There are so many things keep lingering in my blunt mind. Yes, blunt! Blunt in every aspect so saddo of being me!

I hope this blues will go away very very soon because I am damn tired of this. Pity the son and the husband to stuck in the middle of crazy wife and mum...I am so sorry guys for not being a normal me to both of you :-(((

Saturday, 19 February 2011

Red velvet cake

The second time I baked red velvet cake..Trust me, it damn yummy!

Haris at 18 going on 19 months old in a few days away

Haris and I in the university aquarium and museum. Admission fee is Euro 6 per adult. Kids under 6 and University students go free.

Friday, 4 February 2011


I have been thinking since the past few days about life, future, etc. The frequent I browse the Facebook of my friends, the more I feel guilty. Guilty of not having a good career to support my parents and my siblings. To be truth, I almost get everything that I wanted in my previous days in life when I became a housewife. If I requested something from Am, he will try to fulfill my dream as best as he could. He made me become a spoil brat, I guess.

Every time I tell people about my dream to start working again, automatically they will say 'just enjoy your time Nurul, we envy of you, to get a chance to travel around and bla bla bla'. Believe it or not, I do thankful enough for this chance, but as a normal human being, I never satisfied with what I have. Pathetic, isn't? Jealous of seeing friends who hold a good position in a government sector is common for me. I am 32 going on 33 year old this coming October and most of the career women at age 33 have an establish careers, futures etc. I envy them so damn much.

Nevertheless, I am contemplating between back to Malaysia for good or find another job in here ( I mean for my husband ). We have so many pros and cons in this matter. Though, I realized 80 percent of our hearts tell us to stay. Dig a decent amount of money and then return to Malaysia for good and have a very good life. That is our current plan, but it not as easy as it looks because Am is bonding with the University back home and if we break the contract, we shall willing to pay a good amount of monthly payment back to the University.

We will wait and see what is the future promising for us. I trust that our destiny has all written in the 'book' that belongs to our creator, but I do hope he writes a good destiny to us, InsyaAllah.

My heart and head are knackered of answering the question from outsiders about, 'When is the time we will return to Malaysia for good'. I cannot see the sense of this question because when I was in Malaysia none of them were there to meet up or whatever. So, it is a bit strange for me when they asked about this and sometimes, they said, they cannot wait for me to come back for good, because they are missing me. Missing me? huh ! Only one or two people who called me and requested to meet up when I was back in Malaysia in the last year. The rest just simply wrote on my wall about missing etc and never meant what they said. The funniest thing is, they are not even have my hand phone number since graduated from USM. Sorry to say, but I rather left the question unanswered and ignored them.

I have so many plans that not appropriate to tell others since I do not know what is the final conclusion is. I definitely will shout on my wall on Facebook when everything is certain about the planning etc. But, for now I rather keep my mouth shut. I prefer someone to be friend with me because you really think I am your friend and not because, you are a person who cannot help from sticking your nose in somebody's business.

Wednesday, 2 February 2011

Personal opinion

The latest face of me with my best buddy, Natrah

Words sometimes just are not the best way to let the grown up know if they are making the mistakes in the path that they have chosen, simply because they opt for not listening to you (bcoz they think they are always right) until they have made the same mistakes again and again . That is why, sometimes I rather keep my lips sealed without saying any words.

That is my Facebook status. I created the status after observing some grown up attitude including me when it comes to the decision etc. We hate when people give the ideas which against our will. We ask them the opinion but we hope they will say something nice even though it is totally wrong . What a shame!

The easiest example is, when some people in love they tend to forget what is the barrier of the relationship. People maybe say how unacceptable the way they show their love, but they will not listen until the boy/girlfriend left them for another man or woman. Sad isn't?

People always make a mistake, and nothing is perfect, that is why we have an eraser. Hence, it is ok to make a mistake because we learn from it, unless we are thick enough to ignore the mistakes and keep making them. Well, if this things happen I shall say this word ~s.t.u.p.i.d~