Rolling on his tummy

Haris first time rolls on his tummy..I know it late for the baby at his age but mama is proud of u darling..

First taste..

Day two of weaning for Haris..Carrots purree is the menu..

Plastic

I worked as an Engineer with 3k++ monthly income for the past few years. It was not bad at all since I was considered as a junior level. Unfortunately, I still felt lonely so it ended up in me went shopping. Thanks to the addiction because I was in debt with my credit cards for a few years. Everytime I feel stress I will lead myself to shopping mall and usually I would buy something that completely unnecessary.

I kept thinking to pay my debt when I got bonus or raya angpau, but I failed to do so. When I have, should I say plenty of money I will lost my sanity.

So for the past few months, I was determined to settle my debts. There is no use to pay a small amount for the credit card since the balance will keep soaring high.

Taking my deep breath for a few seconds, then I said to my husband in a polite way.

'Could you please pay my credit card debt in advance and deduct it from my monthly allowance that you give me?'.

He looked at me for a while and said,

'R u serious? U can deal without shopping for a month?'

and I said,

'Yes, I am dead serious. I hate to keep paying a minimal amount of the plastic.'

So right on the spot, he logged in to his account in Malaysia and did the transaction of paying all the credit card. Thanks God for my early awareness. And my husband gave me his two cents advice, which is ' The key of money management is to stop and think before you impulsively buy.'

I learned my lesson in a fine way. Thanks hubby for that and now I am a debt free. Well, to be exact since the last Sseptember. I feel glad and trust me, I feel rich when I paid all my debts even though I have zero cent in my purse...heeeehee.

So no more credit card for me..astalavista.

Every cloud has a silver lining

As the morning sunlight shone all over my face, I was forced awake by my little one. He kept grunting loudly, or should I say out of his healthy lungs forcing me to bring him outside. That is an everyday routine for me. If I ignored his request he will make various sounds that ended up in me feeling pity for him because of not entertaining his demands.

I took my pregnancy pause.

Trying to be patient with him. Sometimes when you feel sleepy , it is just much easier to blast like a bomb. Maybe not to the baby but the father, the chances are always there. Nevertheless, the purest smile of my little one made my heart melted.




Oh Gosh! How I love this little creature so damn much..Who can say no to this cute face?



For the past few days, I was so depressed with my never ending problems and shall I call my friendship life crisis. The unpleasant situation was driving me mad and I almost lost my sanity, luckily I have some people who are always there when I need them. Truthfully, I was about to giving up on everything until today.

Before that,

I thought today would be the same and cliche day for me, but I was wrong. It all started when I received an email from a friend of mine saying that she is getting married this coming Valentine's day. I can feel a zing of excitement when I heard the news. At last, she found Mr. Right to guide her through and I do hope it lasts for the whole life. InsyaAllah.

Suddenly...

The memories between us flashed vividly in my half occupied with the baby's demands mind. I miss the time where we would talk loudly as if we were deaf. We laughed like bananas eventhough the things were not so funny. Sleeping over in the same bed while chatting about how handsome that fella was. Gossipping about our old memories back in USM, and many more. I just miss all those moments. Indeed!

The best news came when my husband told me his Mphil convocation will take place this coming 17th December. How I wish the baby's passport will be ready before that time so that we can attend the ceremony. Celebrating his achievement after being in some difficulties for quite sometimes. So, December perhaps will be the day we return back to Manchester, even though it just for a while but I do cherish the chances to go there since I miss Manchester so much especially Arndale, the shopping mall. So lame! typical me I guess...

Until then, I will keep beaming wide and realize that every cloud has a silver lining..

Unconditional love

A not so little person is lying soundly in his cot after waking up a few times. The one who was in me for about 40 weeks. The one I used to carry everywhere and surrender my cowardice just to make sure his wellbeing in my tummy. The one who has grown since the past three and half months in this world.

Every night when I accompany him during bedtime, I will feed him until he has a full stomach so that he can sleep through longer stretch of hours. After that, I will scoop him up and brace him in my arms and shush him while singing lullabies until he falls asleep. The overwhelming feeling just rushes into me. I keep staring at his face and continuously talking to him in an audible voice, saying how much I love him. I swear and promise to do anything and guide him in his entire life.

But,

Sometimes, scary thoughts keep flashing in my mind about how I might screw something as perfect as this.

Now and then in the middle and end of the night, I look forward to waking up to feed him. It feels weird when he just sleeps through until pst his feeding time. I can't bear to leave him hungry in his sleep. I think that is what called, mother's instinct . So far, Haris is a happy baby. He has not given me a hard time. He has not cried a lot but he just grunts when he needs something, unless I ignore him totally for a while. So when it did happen, he will cry out loud to show his rebellion.

But, it is all worth it. I now can't live without him. my flesh and blood..Haris

Talking about life

The journey of life has started in womb. But the real life that really counts is when we were born to this, let's say a challenging world. Sometimes life is so hard and unfair to us even though we are doing the right things. Sometimes life is so easy when you are not realizing you are walking towards the solutions. Sometimes life is so mean, no matter how smart you are when dealing with everything. Sometimes life is full with vibrant colours and suddenly it turns bleak and dark at the end. sometimes life is full of joys and sadness or otherwise. Life, full of everything and it likes a wheel. Sometimes we are on the top and the next time we are at the bottom. But all of all, that is what we called life. Full of ups and downs and whatever happen, life must goes on..