another years ...

can u see haris signature by papa's


Primary school, I hoped my parents will throw a birthday bash for me every year, though it only happened twice in those time.

Entering secondary school and University time, I wished my friends and my dreamed boyfriend to celebrate my birthday with me but it only meant to be, I have not got boyfriend, so only friends and besties by myside to celebrate it with me. Though, I really happy to the fullest with every year of my birthday.

Now, at this stage, I have my 'ex boyfriend,' 'ex fiance' and my husband and the best part is my son to celebrate birthday with me, nevertheless, deep inside I still feeling lonely. Lonely of hoping my university best buddies to wish me a birthday wishes like they used to be. But, what to expect, I have forgotten their birth date so are they. I guess so.

I know, now I have another best buddies and they keep standing by myside when I need them and maybe I am the one who always busy and seem less care to lend my ears to them, though I really want them to know I always love them like I love my university buddies. But, I am not good with my words. Though , they are really worth in my prayer.

Today marked another years of my life. I am turning 32 year old. How I wish it was 23 years old instead, but I am still feeling young inside out. Though, I do realize it means minus another one year of living in this world and otherwise. I noticed something this year, the older means the lesser I got the wishes from my friends etc. Nevertheless, I could not thankful enough for all the well birthday wishes that came through my private message and my wall. You all really made my day.

I could not agree more when people said, when we become older, we hope it comes along with wiser. Wiser in making decision, wiser in every aspects of my life. InsyaAllah. Every wishes means a lot to me. I look every details and some of them are really touching my heart like 'click' at the right moment.

Anyway, thanks all for the birthday wishes...do wish again for more years to come.

the gift? He gave me cash money a few hundred Euro, so that I can buy whatever I want to..hehhee

Every cloud has a silver lining

As the morning sunlight shone all over my face, I was forced awake by my little one. He kept grunting loudly, or should I say out of his healthy lungs forcing me to bring him outside. That is an everyday routine for me. If I ignored his request he will make various sounds that ended up in me feeling pity for him because of not entertaining his demands.

I took my pregnancy pause.

Trying to be patient with him. Sometimes when you feel sleepy , it is just much easier to blast like a bomb. Maybe not to the baby but the father, the chances are always there. Nevertheless, the purest smile of my little one made my heart melted.




Oh Gosh! How I love this little creature so damn much..Who can say no to this cute face?



For the past few days, I was so depressed with my never ending problems and shall I call my friendship life crisis. The unpleasant situation was driving me mad and I almost lost my sanity, luckily I have some people who are always there when I need them. Truthfully, I was about to giving up on everything until today.

Before that,

I thought today would be the same and cliche day for me, but I was wrong. It all started when I received an email from a friend of mine saying that she is getting married this coming Valentine's day. I can feel a zing of excitement when I heard the news. At last, she found Mr. Right to guide her through and I do hope it lasts for the whole life. InsyaAllah.

Suddenly...

The memories between us flashed vividly in my half occupied with the baby's demands mind. I miss the time where we would talk loudly as if we were deaf. We laughed like bananas eventhough the things were not so funny. Sleeping over in the same bed while chatting about how handsome that fella was. Gossipping about our old memories back in USM, and many more. I just miss all those moments. Indeed!

The best news came when my husband told me his Mphil convocation will take place this coming 17th December. How I wish the baby's passport will be ready before that time so that we can attend the ceremony. Celebrating his achievement after being in some difficulties for quite sometimes. So, December perhaps will be the day we return back to Manchester, even though it just for a while but I do cherish the chances to go there since I miss Manchester so much especially Arndale, the shopping mall. So lame! typical me I guess...

Until then, I will keep beaming wide and realize that every cloud has a silver lining..

Thanks Bumi Belgium..

The last time I had a blast news in my life was, when I found out I fell pregnant in a few months back. It seems so ages since it has happened. Fortunately, again we were showering with the greatest news in a few weeks back but it was confirmed today in black and white. I really feel this is the good fortune for us and our unborn baby . What is the good news then? Hahahaha..still cannot be revealed it here, but trust me it never had a connection with my pregnancy. I just told a few friends that I have trusted and closed to me. A friend who is always there to hear my problems out. Thanks k!

Instead of being happy with the news, I will keep reminding myself about one thing. If something meant to be yours..It will be yours forever. Never worried about what if this and that? It all depends on Allah wills. What I can do is, just keep thanking him always. And, again it makes me realized the best decision we had ever done so far was, moving from Manchester to Belgium. Part of the risky undertakings so far has been paid. We could not thankful enough when the worst recession hits Uk , Europe and all over the world, we still have the chances. Our fate is here..our livelihood is here...Our chance to be a parent is here..Everything is here..Thanks bumi Belgium for all the chances that you have given us...Aku syukur..aminn..

Cheriooooooooo

Now, my mood is back on..I am sooo happy..my sadness has disappeared in the thin wind..hahahaha.

Haircut

Je suis allé pour coupe des cheveux. Le coiffure a été si gentil. Il m'a donné prix discount. Seulement 10 euro.Hehehe .. Je suis très satisfait du service. Très bien fait!

Translation

I went for my haircut. The hair dresser was so nice. I got the discount price. Only 10 euro. The service was so gud. and aku sgt berpuas hatt..sekian .tq

Au revoir Mon Mari poisson

My husband fish in the fish tanks are dead. The causes of the death , still mystery..nantila kena buat post mortem..hahaahha..in my heart..guddddddd ikan dah mati..if not he will put 100% attention pd fish..sukeeeeee ikan mati!