Farewell

A friend of mine, Natrah has finished her PHD and went back to Malaysia for good yesterday morning. Her flight departed from Brussels International Airport at 8am. As a good friend of mine, I could not help watching her back for good without bidding farewell for the very last time. Thus, Ina , Haris and I made an effort to meet her and we left the house as early as 4.30am to catch a train to the airport. Alhamdulillah, everything went very well.

Natrah,
I met you as a stranger,
I took you as a friend,
I hope we will meet again,
Where our friendship is never ends..amin, InsyaAllah.

Fruity tears..

After being four years apart, today marked the day we reunited, Alhamdulillah syukur..My patience has paid. I could taste the fruity days ahead..

When a best friend says something, It means a lot...

Best friend does not mean we have to stay closed of each others physically, at least for my opinion. The best buddy is the one who always gives you support, being there when you need them and always knows even though you say nothing at all.

Yesterday I received this message from one of my best buddies. She wrote this to me when she read my notes about the message from my father after he's leaving on a jet plane.

• • nurul sweetie, the message from your beloved parents was indeed full of emotions, genuinely from the heart. It makes me realize that sometimes I hurt my parents. Thank you for this sweet reminder my friend. My do'a to pakcik and makcik, may your haj will get full blessing from Allah. Amin. Take care my beloved friend nurul, I love u so much .

• Trust me, this message means a lot to me. That was a very thoughtful of her to send me those sweet words. I love you too dear...

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Friendship syndroms

~It's always important to tell friends how special they are. And that's even more true when they're about to leave us.~Meghan~


The quote above is just so true. Very true indeed. I learnt from my besties that if we love our friends dearly just say it without hesitatation. Let's say When I love my girlfriends, I will say it to them. 'Like I love you', 'babe', 'darling'..'sayang ko'..etc..It is very hard to say in the first place but at last I managed!.

Parallel with our lives, friends will come and go but only special or true friends will remain or have touched your heart deeply. As my previous status in FB before, about friendship. I have so many friends, my childhood friends, my schoolmate friends, my unimate friends etc. All these are my friends in a different stages of life.

For me the childhood friends are friends whom I share my 'history'. History in the early stage of life. The stage where we had a crush on someone, admiring teachers, field activities after school etc. Thanks to FB, for giving me a chance to meet my old friends after like 20 years apart. Some of them have already departed, meeting the creator. Al fatihah.

My 20s friends are mostly from the same university I went to. We used to be close to one another until we got busy with our daily jobs and chores. Sometimes, no matter how dedicated we are , our relationships or friendships change as we navigate through our twenties, thirties and beyond. Like I said , being occupied with 'something else' ended up building a huge gap among us. Sigh!

Now, when I am entering my 30s, my friendships change. As I got older, I view my friendships in a different point of views and angle and sadly to say, usually I need to let them go with half heartedly. Unwillingly because of the 'unforeseen circumstances'.

I met various level of friends from different background. Some of them are just too kind. Their kindness sometimes just makes my heart melt. This time, I swear I will appreciate and take good care of them. True friends are such a waste to be lost. Friendships just enhance my life, whether by sharing the bad times or enjoying a joyous gossip especially with my girlfriends. A simple shared experience sometimes lifts me from the cliche routine.

I just love a few of my girlfriends very much and I could not bear to see other people take advantages of them. And trust me, if this thing happen, I will undoubtedly take immediate action. Just wait and see..That is my promise!

silences make the real conversations between friends!

Have you ever loved your friend dearly in your entire life? And sometimes, when your friends try to hide something from you just because they have their own reasons you just knew it. No matter it is either for a good or a bad reasons, it is better to tell them the truth. Because it really hurts when our friends know that we keep an important matter as a secret. Sometimes, your friends just knew what is going on in your life but they just sit still and keep watching you from afar. Why? The answer is because ,silences make the real conversations between you and your beloved friends because it is not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts.

If you have ever faced the same situation as I mentioned above, it means that you are a real friend and you know your beloved friends very well.

Trust me, friends will come and go, but the true friends will remain ....

Friend's visit

I have been busy for the whole week starting from last wednesday until yesterday. My unimate came all the way from Birmingham to pay us a visit. Very generous of her for bringing some of Haris birthday stuffs that I ordered from the UK. She arrived on last wednesday. So, on thursday we went off to sightseeing in Brussels, followed by Brugge on Friday, enjoying Braderie in Liege on Saturday and Maastricht on Sunday. She enjoyed visiting Belgium very much. Well, that what she said to me ;-).

On Monday in the following week, she went off to Brussels again to visit Atomium building. Unfortunately, I could not make it since Haris was a bit cranky on that day.

Braderie this year I cought nothing much just a pair of jeans from Morgan and tops from Benetton. I bought a few stuffs for Haris though...This was the third year of Braderie for me and this year sale failed to catch my eyes..

Anyhow,I know my fren enjoyed it since she bought, well dare I say everything ;-P

Friendship day?

I received an email from my Unimate wishing me and other friends 'happy friendship day', which is I have totally no idea when is the exact date of the day is. The email sounds like this,

MY PREN ,
Persahabatan

itu seperti tangan dgn mata...

Saat tangan terluka, mata menangis.

Saat mata menangis

tangan menghapuskannya ...

"SELAMAT
HARI PERSAHABATAN SEDUNIA"

... Kirimkan ini ke
semua teman2 mu yg kamu sayangi...

lihat berapa byk
kamu dpt balasannya ...

kalau lebih dr 7
ertinya

"U ARE
LOVEABLE".

Hmmmm..Frankly, it is undeniable that, friend is one of the most important thing in our life instead of family. But sometimes it is so hard to find a friend indeed. Especially when we are in need. As the time goes by, it is not completely bizarre if our closed friend can be a completely stranger to us. That is why this email left without replying from me. It likes 'unrequitted'. Hehehe..No, just kidding. The fact is, it does not mean you are unloveable if I did not reply this email. It just I do not know who should I forward this emil to. Plus, we should not wait for the friendship day to say how much we appreciate our friendship. What I mean is, not once in a blue moon. We should show and say it constantly. melampau ke?hehhehe.

I realize this for sometimes ago. Whereby my closed friend always come and go. I admit, I am not a good friend as well. Sometimes I have to hurt my friends's feeling because I was at my wits' end. I have no choice. It likes 'ditelan mati emak, di luah mati bapak'. Nevertheless, I also admit I have a friend that always been there when I need them. No matter how far our distance is. A friend who is always asking about my condition, keeping in touch, sharing my joy, wishing all the important events in my life etc. Likewise what I always do to them!

When I ponder long and steadily, it is completely out of my sane thought when somebody that I did not expect to be a friend of mine turn to be my best buddy. Sharing a good and bad news, giving an advice when I need it, remembering me by sending a short message when they are away and many more to mention like a never ending list. Thanks for being my friend. I really appreciate it so much. I hope you know who you are.

Sometimes, a person who claims our best friend but without having a second thought gossiping about us with others. It is completely unforgivable. In my life I met somebody who is totally untrustworthy when she was gossiping about my personal life, to be exact about my marriage to somebody else. How come I know about that? Hahahaa..by Allah's will, the person that she used to gossip about me has become one of my friend nowadays. Kalau dipikir2 macam tak lojik.What a small world. So from the day onwards, I swear with the whole heart not putting any trust on this person anymore. Just be a friend. No more sharing secrets.Enough is enough. I learn from my previous mistakes.

Before nagging lengthily without stopping in this entry I want to wish Happy
Friendship Day to all my friends out there. And I wish you all the best in life..

the time when the friendship is become more precious in life..

Since having the nausea feeling, I am fussy in choosing the right food to keep me in a good shape. I was craving for the foods that hard to get and cook for untrained chef likes Am.

This time was the worst ever until a few friends of mine were offering to cook what I craved for! Thanks to Kak Na, Natrah, Nurul Brussels, Kak Nurul to entertain me very well in my needy time. A friend in need is a friend indeed. That is the right proverb to describe my new friends in Belgium.

I know sometimes hormones take control in my daily life. I can be in a good and bad mood in no time. There is no point to find out the causes of the action. The answers is the hormone. Well, I am not too bad since I can balance myself up-to-now.

Sometimes in friendship, it not the daily contact can make me alive and to spark the friendship feelings. Sometimes the simple 'how-are-you?' message is the most important things to wish every once in a while. Do not send me the forwarded email because without hesitantly I will send it to the spam mail. And I guess you will regret it forever to send me those email. The lengthy email is not what I ask for though. Only a few word to ask how is your friend doing is the best to keep in touch. I do not accept the long distance makes the friendship vanish in the thin air, plus do not use the term 'out of sight, out of mind' but the best term to use is absence makes the heart beats pounder. That is the meaning of the true friendship is for me! But I know it takes two to Tango..so no point for me to 'take care' of it if the others party do not!

Well, that is life...I accept all the ups and downs with full hearted.

Tracking down ....

Guess what? I was succeeded tracking down where MR is and his current photo..hahahhaa..after all this while, err..maybe he was forgetting or never gave a damn shit about my existance , the lunatic person in Matrik Suria..but...whatever!! The point is, I always know I can do it!

Gathering and tahlil on occasion of celebration of Ramadhan

Did I mention in my previous entry about the "tahlil" and "bacaan yassin", that was taken place in Antwerp yesterday? I think nope, because I have forgotten to write about that in my last entry. Yes, we stayed overnight in Abg Mazli house after sightseeing to help them to cook for the feast. We cooked nasi kerabu, cucur udang, fruits salad etc. After being enjoying myself for the whole day, in the night I had to spent hours to finish some of the dishes. Even my day was pretty knackered but I was so happy to lend my hand in cooking, especially to cook my traditional recipe, nasi kerabu. I did not put high expectation when I cooked that but the result was pretty well! The tahlil was conducted by one of our friend, Zaini. He did it successfully for the first time. Well, maybe after this we can ask him to conduct bacaan yassin and tahlil at ours in the future. Insya Allah...

After the tahlil, we ate, talked and took some photos before went back to liege. We took train at 6.30pm and safely arrived in Liege at 8.30pm in the night. A nice and well spent weekend indeed!

p/s- for the whole activities photos as usual can be viewed in my fp.

Understanding

'Understanding' words is not as easy as it sounds when it comes to our daily life. To understand other people's position when we are not in their shoes. This thought crossed my mind after I chatted with one of my friend this morning. She told me exactly how she felt when a bunch of her close friends seemed to exclude her from some of their activities. I kept persuading her that it was just her assumption that maybe it was because of the hormones or whatsoever.

Frankly, I think she was not paranoid in this matter after she told me why she said so! Trust me I know her well since the past ten years or more. Regardless of the cliche reason that her friends kept giving her when she asked the reason why they were doing this to her, she kept trying to think positive,now, she just lets nature take its course. I know that I am not the one who should give advice to those who need it so much, especially when I already have enough on my plate. But for me, it is simply about "trying to understand as much as you can about others before you judge them, and trying to put ourselves in their shoes," I used to complain and talk around about some of my so-called friends when they did something that I thought I could handle it easily if it was me instead. The point is that I used to tattle about my friends about things that later on happened to me instead! As we know, what goes around will come around, since then, I think it is better to keep my mouth shut and just pray for them.People would never ever understand until it happens to themselves! Life is complicated enough to conquer with so I will try to deal with my life wisely!

Gathering at Ternuzen,Holland

Yesterday, We were invited to join a party by Kak Zue and Abg Zam at their house in Tenurzen, Holland. This party was more like a farewell party because they are going back to Malaysia for good this coming september. They arranged cabs (about eight people) from Ghent train station for us and even paid the fares. The hosts were very nice people indeed and I am pretty sure that we will miss having them around in the future. What more could we ask for? We are really grateful to them for everything. While we were waiting for the cab, I took the oportunity to take a few pics around Ghent station, Frankly, this town was not so bad for sightseeing and I will do that soon, maybe spend the whole day in Ghent.


We drove to Kak Zu's house and the journey was about 30 minutes. Actually, Tenurzen is a strategically located port on the waterways to Ghent, in present-day Belgium. Nowadays the Ghent-Terneuzen Canal is still an important shipping route. The port of Terneuzen is the third largest in the Netherland and it stated nearby the Belgium-Holland frontier. Besides that, this town is full of chemical plants that give people the oppurtunity to get jobs and to improve their economy. We arrived at Kak Zue's around mid afternoon.The first time I stepped my foot in their house, I was mesmerized by how spick and span the residential area was. The area looked private and very well cared for!


From outside I can smell the foods that made my stomach rumble like hell. Powerful beats of excitement rushed through me as I entered the house..Gosh! What a surprise, they provided plenty of foods to taste and the food smell was very very promising! There was Lamb, chicken rice, kek batik, baked potatoes pie, "sup ekor", fruits, drinks, "kuih muih", and plenty more..Guess what? I had three servings and even brought some of the leftover food back home. What a shame..hehehee.













The evening went very well, I met new friends from the Netherland and we talked, ate, took photos until we did not realize that time went by so fast. Suddenly, one of our friend said that the taxi was ready to drive us back to Ghent, Belgium. "Oh my God! What time is it, now?" I asked my friend and she said "5.00 pm"..see how terrible I was to lose track of time.


After saying good bye, we went off and continued the day by visiting one of our friend, Ros who gave birth to a baby boy at Ghent.Congratulations my friend! At 8.30 pm we took the train and arrived in Liege at 11.30 in the night. A splendid and knackered day indeed...

Friendship

Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more beings. Talked about friendship, It started between us since the first day I stepped my foot in here. Even we met twice before at her home in Manchester when she arranged a christmast party in two years back but I've never ever thought that someday she will be one of my "ladies day out friend". Who is the one that I am expressing about right now? It is not a puzzle that need to be answered by everybody just read this entry thoroughly until the last dot.

Yes, she is Laurence my friend that I made an entry about her birthday before. Yesterday at 1 pm in the evening,she came to visit me for the last time before she flew out to Greece with her husband Greg at 4pm in the evening. They will off to Greece for one and half months. Quite long holiday indeed. Personally,nothing special about her in this entry instead off she came here to give me plenty of food that leftover in their fridge and gave me "Marie Clare" our favourite magazine..It is normal thing for her to hand out to me the magazine after she read it monthly.

Now, come to the point why I am writing about her in this entry, frankly from the bottom of my heart since yesterday onwards she made me feel our friendship is much appreciated between us. Want to know why? Well, she came here not simply to give the foods but to say good bye in a proper way to me.What I mean by proper way? Ahahaha,Here it goes..She gave me her hp number in Greece, Yeap just in case! We talked about an hour before I showed herself out and at that moment she asked me "Can I hug u, Nurul?" in a very sincere looked through her eyes..and I said.."Yes, of course u can..nothing whatsoever reason that hug is forbidden between us as a friend" That moment I felt something inside me,something that can't be interpreted and showed with words only body gestures talk itself.(perhaps I feel so into it because I have nobody in here just Am and I guess it much better if u have friends to talk to rather than not or otherwise you will be like "Billy no mate".),then she hugged me tightly and said that she will keep in touch during her holiday and she will come back with my favourite souvernier(oh by the way, everytime she went abroad she never ever forget to bring me souvenier)and she added that she is going to miss me.So can you see why I said this entry is worth to write even it is nothing so special about that?

Nevertheless, It doesn't mean that I am not appreciate and miss all my friends out there..I do miss you all very much and I am so sorry indeed if anything I made before that made the relationship broken, I trust that a broken friendship may be soldered but will never be sound again, yet I do trust that everything happened for a reason so just follow the nature..InsyaAllah there is a way..no way without will right? Lastly, I hope Laurence will have a safe and sound journey ahead and just come back quickly,and do keep in touch my friend!

laurence's birthday

On 12th June 2008 Laurence and I had celebrated her birthday in a very simple way. Nevertheless, I made her a little surprise since she‘s being so nice to me…I bought her a bouquet of yellow roses as a symbol of friendship, coin box that has a nice word on it saying that make ur wish comes true and a birthday card, and I put everything in one hallmark goodies bag . Dear Lurence I wish a Happy Birthday to u …

laurence's birthday

On 12th June 2008 Laurence and I had celebrated her birthday in a very simple way. Nevertheless, I made her a little surprise since she‘s being so nice to me…I bought her a bouquet of yellow roses as a symbol of friendship, coin box that has a nice word on it saying that make ur wish comes true and a birthday card, and I put everything in one hallmark goodies bag . Dear Lurence I wish a Happy Birthday to u …

Congratulations Che Nad!!!!!!!

This entry dedicate especially to che nad...congratulations for ur new title...Dr Nadiah Nor Mohd Yusoff..betoi ke ejaan nama ni?? with only minor deficiencies..anyway..i am proud of u..u made it on ur viva dated 29/2/2008...leap year..tu...ok chenad tahniah ko dah lepas phd...doakan la kekawan yg bakal2 ni pulak...

Al -Fatihah

Al-Fatihah ke atas kepulangan arwah bapa mentua eqin ke rahmatullah pada jam 1.48am semalam..semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang beriman..Amin..

i miss her...

i miss her...
whose i've called friend,
whose i used to gossip about before,
whose i had laugh together before,
who used to play a song when she brought her guitar to my home,
whose i used to talk about everything...

i miss her...
as i always want to and hope she will be a friend of mine now and forever,
sorry for everything...

i miss HER....friendship..

my ------ friend...

This entry i dedicate to my friend named ( withhold )..that i think might be she left me and some other friends left behind to reach her new life style. My friend, if by any chance you drop by and read this poem..i hope you realize how i feel the distance between us getting drift apart..

My friend,

Left alone in the past
Forgotten friendships buried, never meant to last
She walked away from me
Why couldn't I foresee?
Time standing still
Another way to deal, another pill
The sky is gray with hate
One thing tore us apart, your fate
Now what will you do?
Who will confide in you?
Remember the times we shared?
Remember how well we paired?
Who is next in line?
Look at what you've done
This time I will stand in front of you,
I won't run
Don't bother me anymore
All you touch, you tore
What you wanted, you took
Now I glance back, I take one last look
You left me alone in your past
Forgotten friendships buried, never meant to las

How friendship break

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy
And Will Not Contact
Thinking It May Be Disturbing

As Time Passes
Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact
After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?

Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate
Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak
They Forget Each Other.
So Keep In Touch With All
I Don`t Want To Be One Of This Kind.

I Am Fine Here
Please keep in touch with me