Skincare and new look

Looking at my face at the mirror on the wall makes me realize something. There is a sign of ageing skin. The fine wrinkle around my eyes and forehead. I kept looking and found out my skin has changed from oily skin into dry skin. When the weather is cold and breezy it becomes very dry and left it scaly. So, yesterday in the day 24 of my confinement, I did ask my husband to accompany me to go for shopping. I shopped for skincare products and a few cloth for a new look after giving birth.

Off we went. Our first destination was Paris ICI XL. This shop is the shop that sells beauty products and fragrances. I set my mind to try for Lancome brand since Loreal, Clinique and Mary Kay have failed to give me the best result that I hope for. The beautician dia ask me about my preference. And I told her I wanted to go for Lancome. This is mt first trial with this brand so I need her advice on this product. She gave me all the needy information about the products after analyzing my skin type. It serves me right when she told me the result that my skin is a very dry skin. So she proposed tonique confort toner and gelatee confort cleansing milk as my basic skin care. And for the anti ageing she introduced the new product which is, genifique youth activating concentrate. After satisfying with her promotion of the products, we bought those three items that had been promoted without having a second thought.

After that, we went to Zara. I bought a cloth for me. I did not find any suitable jeans so maybe next week will be the next shopping trip for me before Ramadhan. When I was in Zara, I almost lost my mind when they put all the spring summer items on sale. Everything as cheap as Euro 7 for jeans, clothes and many more. But, being there with a baby I did not spend so much time on shopping my clothes. But, Am promised me to go there again next week, plus I want to buy something for Haris too. Baju raya..bole? hehehe..

So, about the skin care that I bought, I did try it twice and so far so good. But it too early to give the verdict for those items. But, Insya Allah if I am ok with those items, I will be a loyal customers for this product. I will swear on this product la ngn kata lainnya. No ,more tukar 2 and doing experiment on my skin. Fingers crossed!

Hmm..got to go, the truth is, I have been busy with my new role as a mum. Preoccupied with many new tasks until I do not have so much time for blogging and facebooking. Letih but it a new experience for me as a mum..



Haris at last 10 days


Haris today, after 10 days..muka nak start nangis..mama susu is a serious biz okay!

Baby has memory and post natal depression?

I notice something since the past few days. Sometimes, after taking a bath in the morning around 10 am, baby Haris seems to cranky a bit even though after his feeding time. I know he sleepy but he seems so hard to fall asleep. Accidentally, I played the musical toys for him after putting him in the baby cot a few days back. The song is Hush little baby. This song is the song that I used to play repeatedly during pregnancy time. I put on a headphone on my bump while playing this song. Amazingly, after playing this hush little baby song twice, baby Haris seems to drift away in his dreamland easily. I thought I was in delusional and it coincidence when he sleeps easily twice after hearing that musical toys. But, I was wrong. Today is my fourth day experimental that song on him. And guess what? He fell asleep right after he heard that song. Amazing huh?

Some of you did ask about my confinement period? Officially I am in day 13 of my confinement period. Confinement without having closed family by me is very hard to sail through. I just go for the basic thingy like 'bertungku' at least one hour per nite, wearing corset nightly after bertungku is compulsory to avoid my flabby tummy stay like this for the rest of my life. I hope it works out.

Lately, I am having a baby blues symptoms, well I guess la kan. I keep crying and over sensitive with my surroundings. Everything seems so annoying. When Am said something, I feel like he's using sarcastic words towards me, in fact he did not. Sometimes I do feel like he loves the baby more than I. It weird though, to jealous with my own baby. Maybe because before this only the two of us. When the baby popped out, we need to divide our love fairly among us.

Frankly, I miss my pregnancy moment. The time when Am always touches my bump gently and keeps talking to the baby. It feels like he is pouring his love towards the baby and I. But, now when the baby came out, he puts extra attention on the baby. He seems to forget I am the one who gives birth to the baby and I really need his attention too. Where is the gentle touch of love from him? The bump and back massage during my pregnancy time is the things that I miss so much. Now? sigh..I think one fine day I will make sure he knows what I really want or otherwise I will explode like a lifetime bomb.

If I give birth again in abroad in the future, I will make sure at least one of my family member will come over to look after me or otherwise, I will ask to send me back home to go through my confinement with my family by me. Never ever again went through this hardest time alone with Am. Sometimes I never put the blame on him because he never had experienced too in taking care of his wife during the confinement period.

So to my friends out there, who has an opinion about this post natal depression, do share with me ok. Zikrullah, reciting ayat kursi and istighfar a lot seems to give me boost of energy in sailing through this hardest time.

Pity Haris, he is a good baby. Not cranky to much except when he hungry. Everytime I look at his innocent face, it makes me feel guilty. Guilty towards something that me, myself not understand what. Astaghfirullahalazim.....sigh!!!