my sunshine

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine,
you make me happy when skies are grey,
you'll never know dear how much i love you,
please don't take my sunshine away...

Haris is not feeling well since the last two days. He has runny nose and coughing. At his new age (read = not even two months old yet ) it is so heart wrenching and I cannot stop my heart from thumping hard every time I see him like that. One thing about my poor baby is, eventhough his ill, he does not cranky and grumpy so much. He just crying when he asks for milk and when he could not stand the blockage nose anymore. When I hold her tight and keep talking to him about how good he is and the cold will goes away, he seems to understand what I was rambling about. Well, of course he does not but he could calm when he heard my persuade voice on him. Wait, one more thing I love when we are interacting between us is, Haris will look at me puzzledly and out of the blue he will beam at me and the smile he gave me is the purest smile in the world!

Taking care of a baby is really a hard work. I have to concentrate on him and gives him my full time consuming that I could offer. In fact I could not offer more! Whimpering asking for my attention is the best he could do to attract my attention. He is not crying out loud just 'ekk..ekkk..ekk'..Poor baby.

Sometimes when I am pretty busy in the kitchen to cook for break fasting dishes, he will cry and whimper more in hope I could come to place him in my arms. As I said, he is not into his papa so much. I started cooking at 6.30pm because the Iftar time is about 8pm. So this time is the bed time for Haris. To be placed in bed must be done by me. If not he refuses to sleep at all. It really hard to cook and accompany my baby off to bed, and me usually will give priority in cooking. By the time I finished, he is so damn sleepy and cranky. Sigh, sorry baby for did that! Trust me my darling, mama has to have the strength of elephants to do that .

Now, Haris is sleeping (not too soundly though) in his cot. He sleeps by his own since he was born in the cot. I just placed him in my bed after 5 am in the morning after his feeding time. I know he feels safe and cocoons from the world everytime I wrap him up in his fleece blanket. His face so peaceful and I love to watch him sleep. And everytime I do that, my heart is full of love towards him.

When he cries, I feel like crumpling into tears and when he sick, I feel twice time sickie than him..I guess this is what we called, mother's love..It grows in me now and then..InsyaAllah..I know this entry is hardly a big deal for others and no need to make a song and dance about it, but it is for me as a new mum. The one who is trying very hard to adjust herself with motherhood.

Rambling

Day by day,
He is getting cheekier,
I am getting busier,
but rather than that I am a happier mum to Haris...

Haris lagi

Parents talk

I was in the middle of talking with my husband last night. The topic is about, can he manage to take care of Haris for one fine day if I went to massage and facial perhaps, next weekend la kan. So he admitted, it will be a hard task since Haris not into him so much. Haris will prefer to be hugged by me if he wants to sleep and not to forget he prefer breastmilk than formula milk. Nevertheless, the formula milk will do if he is so damn hungry and tired.

After a few moment, suddenly Am popped out this sentences, 'Normally man will remarry if their spouse passed away just because they lack of patient, experience and bla2 to take care of their child'. So I asked him, ' will you remarry again if I died?'. And he spontaneously said, ' Hell no, of course not!' and do not talk about dying plz. So I answered him, If I died, I do not mind the world matter, you can remarry or whatsoever but please take a good care of Haris. If not I will haunt you for the whole life.. Then he said seriously, I will never ever thought about marriage after you just because I know, nobody can take care of Haris as good as you do..What a sweet word, oh my.

In a nut shell, my hubby maybe just play a sweet words towards me, but as I knew him for this long, I can convince myself he said it purely from his heart. Hmm, well someimes in marriage we prefer to hear complimentary words rather than sarcastic one. And trust me, it will bright up your marriage and relationship, not always though..hehehhehe

If Haris could talk....

He definitely says this,

Haris rasa mama gila sebabnya, pagi after bath, Haris dipaksa posing begini..



and petang pulak macamni..terjepit okay!

Tagged

1) Sile copy award ini di blog anda:
Done
2) Nyatakan 6 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini (Are t)
a)Kawan masa USM and satu course ngan Am.
b)Pernah scotting di umah dia masa kat PB..thanks Aret..aku takkan lupa budi ko tu..nanti dtg scotting umah aku kat PB ok...hehehe
c)Sgt dah kurus.
d) Tgh wat PHD..gud luck aret ngn permanent head damage..hehhee..gurau je ok!
f)Rasanya sedikit manja mayb sebab ko anak bongsu kot ek?
g)Sgt suka lirik lagu elampau had kenyal.

3)Nyatakan 9 fakta tentang diri anda sendiri:
a)Dah 3 tahun jd housewife sb ikut suami.
b)Baru menempuh alam parenting.
c)Berniat nak buat maters tpii sampai skrg tak terbuat..ntah hape2..
d)Suka berdiam bila da yg tak kena and sampai masa akn meletup.
e)suka travel n sopink.
f)Suka makan..tapi only 1 kilo left to kurus ke pre pregnancy weight.
g)suka plain water only.
h)Tak cukup tidoooooo
i)Minat fotografi and dlm perancangan (sejak berkurun) nak sambar dslr tapi idak jugak sampai skrg.

4)Pilih 10 penerima award seterusnye .. TAG mereka:
aisey 2 je la..ummi and elziera..

balasan nota cinta, perhaps?

Thanks hubby for this..